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| 09:05pm 25/06/2006 |
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mood:  annoyed music: nnnoooonnneeee
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yesterday sucked.... i saw The Lake House(the most ridiculously stupid movie ever), and then all this fucking drama unfolded.. errmm yeah..
Today was boring.. i got my nails done(my the nail polish on my toes is already messed up from skateboarding)..skateboarded a little bit.. watched Entourage and thats about it...
I bought an itunes card yesterday and for some reason it has yet to activate.. ffwegfewgewgf ARGGHH i hate macintosh so much..
List Of Songs To Download:
Turbonegro Must Be Destroyed - Turbonegro
Fly - Sugar Ray
Every Morning - Sugar Ray
Some Day - Sugar Ray
When It's Over - Sugar Ray
Here's To The Night - Eve 6
Punk Rawk Show - MXPX
Ball & Chain - Social D
Wester - AFI
Porphyria Cutanea Tarda - AFI
Mob Goes Wild - Clutch |
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| 02:00pm 24/06/2006 |
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mood:  blank music: "Sudden Tragic" by CKY
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i'm really bored... i'm sitting at my computer in a pair of Good Charlotte underwear(lmfao.. i bought them at their concert when i was like 14), and a Circa t-shirt..listening to CKY... and chatting w/ Diana & Liz in IM... it's almost 2pm.. i really need to get dressed or something.. i'm acting like such a lazy shmo....
today i need to:
-practice my guitar
-watch a skate video to pick up pointers on skating.. actually a trick tips dvd would be better.. because when i watch skate videos i usually spend the whole time admiring bam margera's shirtlessness... note to self: buy skate videos that don't have bam on them.
-practice skateboard tricks
-clean my bathroom
-do the wash
-design some decks
CD's I Want To Buy:
- "DecemberUnderGround" AFI
- "Premiscous" Christina Aguilera
- "Undiscovered Numbers & Colors" Forigne Objects
- "Volume 2" CKY
- "Scandanavian Leather" Turbonegro
- "Gold Tape Demo" OIL(i think thats what it's called)
- all 6 different covered version of "CKY Volume 1"
- "666 Ways To Love" HIM (though i know i will never find that for less that $500)
- "Party Animals" Turbonegro
- "I Am Me" Ashlee Simpson
- Angels & Airwaves(i can't even remember the cd title)
- "Greatest Hits" Blink182
- the first Fall Out Boy album. haha |
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| 06:39am 13/06/2006 |
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mood:  tired music: "Knee Deep" - CKY - "CKY Volume 1"
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I seriously forgot i had a live journal.. it's been over two years since i updated this thing and i probably should be embarrassed by 90% of the posts in this thing.. I was extremely depressed and all bent on being "a real punk"(is their honestly such a thing) back when i had this journal.
I am happy to say i think i am now a somewhat well ajusted indevidual(though maybe i'm not.. because i don't think a well ajusted indevidual would have started crying after meeting Jess Margera last week. HAHA).. but yeah.
Like i said when i last updated this i had this lame plan on how to "make" myself a real "punk".. pffttt.. I'm thankfully over that.. I'm not concerned about what i am(though people seem to lable me as a goth, a punk or a skater)..I was so concerned about making sure i wore black everyday and dressed like Benji from Good Charlotte.. i am very happy to say i am over that also.. I still wear black most days, though i am very proud to day i own some brightly colored Bam t-shirts. But yeah.. I'm not all fucked up into wanting to be part of a subculture anymore.. I mean now i am part of the whole skater clique in my city, but it wasn't anything i tried desperatly to be part of.. I like skating.. A lot of people think i started skating because i was "obsessed" with Viva La Bam.. Of corse those people didn't know me before i started skating.. When i was towards the end of my "omg i need to be a real punker" i decided i wanted to get a skateboard becuase it seemed like the punk source of transportation. XD I didn't even watch Viva La Bam on a regular basis back then, only occasionally if i was board and it was on.. I only became like addicted to it shortly after i started skating because my insomnia had got worse and it was on almost everynight in 5 hour blocks.. plus i had friends who were obsessed.. ermm yeah..
Thats not really even touching the surface of anything thats happened over the last two years.. But here's some highlights:
- My mom didn't take me to the 2004 warped tour.. i was crushed.
- July 2004 gave myself a prison style good charlotte tattoo
- Summer 2004 i became suicidal picked out a suicide date
- October 2004 i saw MEST in concert & met the lead singer.. halfway thru the concert i decided i didn't want to die.
- November 2004 I saw Good Charlotte in concert.. i was disapointed their show wasn't that great.. and benji kinda creeped me out... But i met Maddie, Diana, and Hannah.
- December 2004 i open up a MESt web site, TonyLovato.org within the year it becomes the second most popular MEST fan site on the web with over 25 thousand hits to date
- X-mas 2004 i got my skateboard.. a Element No Artifical Flavor Bam Margera pro model with yellow Thunder Trucks, and blue wheels & grip.
- Feb 2005'i go to the skate park for the first time.. it becomes a regular accurance.. and eventually becomes daily.
- Still Feb i get my lip pierced, it lasts a month
-Still Feb.. i start taking Japanese lessons
-Feb 17th.. Out of curiousity i download the song "Poison Girl" by HIM.. I get hooked, and HIM quickly become my favorite band.
- March 2005 out of severe boredom one night i make a site proposing marriage to Bam Margera (marrymebam.com it's still up).. It's a total and compleat joke, but people take it really seriously.. i get a ton of hate mail.
- Still March... i go to a Goldfinger Concert it's awesome.. And i get to go up on stage for the sing along.
- April 2005 I go to a The Killers concert, it sucked.. a few days later i get free tickets to a Christian concert, where i bump into maddie.. we get pulled up on stage. haha
- May 2005 Maddie & I create a ficticious band called Viva La H.E.R... myspace.com/vivalaher
- Still May.. i randomly go to the mall and the Emerica skate team is doing a signing.. i meet Andrew Reynolds, Spanky, and a few other pro skaters.
-June 2005.. i re-do my bedroom to look like the inside of Castle Bam(it seriously looks exactly like it). i get paint in my eye in the process.. not a fun time.
-June 11th.. Maddie, Diana, Hannah and i got to the Zumiez Couch Tour to see Bam Margera skate/sign autographs.. we get about two feet away from him during the demo but we get kicked out of the signing for cutting online. That night i win backstage passes to warped tour online.
- June 29th.. Maddie, Hannah and I go to Warped Tour.. We all meet Sonny Moore from FFTL.. and Backstage i meet Gerard, Ray & Mikey from My Chemical Romance and Patrick from Fall Out Boy.
-July 2005 Me & Maddie record on my computer a fake cd called "Viva La HER Live In West Chester".. Highlights of the CD enclude me & maddie singing along to the Viva La Bam theme song and Hilary Duff's "why not".
- Still July.. inspired by the CKY movies.. Maddie & I decided to go film some pranks at the mall, and get kicked out of Hollister..(i still think it was racially motivated though).
-July still. I go to Eminem/50 Cent concert that turns out to be a nightmare.. the same day i get excepted into a Jewish highschol.
- August 2005...I go to Malibu California on Vacation.. It's my first time to California.. Sadly that same weekend Viva La Bam's last episode aired.. I make my mother switch hotel reservations for that night, so that we are in a hotel that gets MTV. when we get back from malibu.. we get a call from my school saying i have to convert to being jewish before i can start school.
- Still August.. After hearing CKY's "Familiar Realm" on the Viva La Bands cd two months prior i decided to buy their cd "An Ånswer Can Be Found", i only like 3 songs on the cd.. but over time the CD grows on me.
- August 26th.. for old times sake i go see the Backstreet Boys in concert.. it was actually pretty fun.
-September 2005.. Maddie, Hannah & I as a joke declair that Bam Margera's birthday should be a holiday(i seriously must have been crazy last fall..) and hold a "bam margera's birthday holiday party" at the skate park and video tape it(the video is funny).. not everyone thinks it's funny.. and only two people eat the cake we bring..
- October 11th..Hannah & I go see HIM in concert.. i make the mistake of wearing a strapless dress.. while crowd surfing to "Rip Out The Wings Of A Butterfly" my top gets pulled down and i accidentally flash Ville Valo.
- Still October me & maddie go to Desert Ridge mall dressed in our halloween costumes( maddie was Benji the Corn from GC's "I Just Wanna Live" music vid, which was shot the day after we saw them in concert.. and i was Bam Margera circa Season 3 of Viva La Bam) a week before halloween.. 0_0 A few people actually though i was Bam.(very sad).. And some people though Maddie was like a Disney Land type caracter(like someone paid by the mall)...
- Halloween... i start my jewish conversion.
- November.. i decided to start a skateboard company.. ToxicSkateboarding.com.. the team consists of Me, Maddie, Diana, and my skate park friends Mason, Brandon and Grant.
- End of Novemeber.. i meet the Blind skate team.. they happened to be filming at the Wedge one day when Mason and i were skating.. they were really nice.
- X-mas/Chaunnukah..i get a ton of skater stuff.. encluding a new skate board.. Element 3 Beast Bam promodel, Distructo Trucks, Bam grip, Bam 53 mil wheels, Speed Metal Wrecking Ball Bam Bearings.
- The 3rd day of Channukah.. I fall down a mini ramp and break my ankle in 3 places.
- New years eve.. i buy the cd "CKY Volume 1".. i officially become obsessed with CKY.
- January 2006.. MEST, the band that saved my life announce that they're breaking up.. i'm devistated. A few weeks later Bam Margera announces(i think on his official site) that he's getting married.. I offically have no usage for TonyLovato.org(my mest site) or MarryMeBam.com.
- Still January.. i shadow at the Jewish Highschool and decide it's not for me.
-Still January.. i start taking Radio classes at a community college.
- Feb 2006... for the first time in my life i have no birthday party.. i am devistated about not having a sweet 16.. so my mom lets me get a heartagram tattooed on my wrist.
- March 2006.. when my Rabi tells me i'm too young to convert, i officially give up on all religions.
- April 2006.. i compete in my first skate competition.. i'm the ONLY girl out of the 90 entrants.. i come in last place..
- May 2006 i get straight A's in my radio class.
- 666.. i go see HIM in concert for a second time.. i have a much better time than the first.
- June 7th 2006... I see CKY in concert, meet/hug/get autographs from the whole band, and get my picture with 3 out of the 4 guys.. AWESOME AWESOME times.
- June 9th i fly to NYC...
- Today.. i'm going to see the play "The Phantom Of the Opera" on broadway tonight.. it's one of my favorite movies so i'm excited to see it live.. Tomorrow i'm going to be an audiance member on TRL.. and sometime this week i'm going to West Chester PA to see all the places on Viva La Bam & The CKY movies.. and on Sunday i might go to Bam Margera's signing in Times Square(i really want to get a picture w/ Bam to put up on my wall under my picture with Jess). |
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| 12:30am 27/05/2004 |
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music: "you don't mean anything to me" by Simple Plan
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(i stole this from someone else's journal. but the answers are all mine)
BLENDERS 50 WORST SONGS OF ALL TIME. BOLD THE ONES YOU ACTUALLY LIKE.
1. We Built This City ... Starship
2. Achy Breaky Heart ... Billy Ray Cyrus
3. Everybody Have Fun Tonight ... Wang Chung
4. Rollin' ... Limp Bizkit(i fucking love this song)
5. Ice Ice Baby ... Vanilla Ice
6. The Heart of Rock & Roll ... Huey Lewis and the News
7. Don't Worry, Be Happy ... Bobby McFerrin
8. Party All the Time ... Eddie Murphy
<9. American Life ... Madonna(it's def not her best song.. but it's not that bad)
10. Ebony and Ivory ... Paul McCartney and Stevie Wonder
11. Invisible ... Clay Aiken(i am NOT a claymate i swear)
12. Kokomo ... The Beach Boys
13. Illegal Alien ... Genesis
14. From a Distance ... Bette Midler
15. I'll Be There for You ... The Rembrandts
16. What's Up? ... 4 Non Blondes
17. Pumps and a Bump ... Hammer
18. You're the Inspiration ... Chicago
19. Broken Wings ... Mr. Mister
20. Dancing on the Ceiling ... Lionel Richie
21. Two Princes ... Spin Doctors
22. Courtesy of the Red, White and Blue (The Angry American)
23. Sunglasses at Night ... Corey Hart
24. Superman ... Five for Fighting
25. I'll Be Missing You ... Puff Daddy
26. The End ... The Doors
27. The Final Countdown ... Europe
28. Your Body Is a Wonderland ... John Mayer
29. Breakfast at Tiffany's ... Deep Blue
30. Greatest Love of All ... Whitney Houston
31. Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm ... Crash Test Dummies
32. Will 2K ... Will Smith
33. Barbie Girl ... Aqua(Barbie Girl is a friggen flassic)
34. Longer ... Dan Fogelberg
35. Shiny Happy People ... R.E.M.
36. Make Em Say Uhh! ... Master P featuring Silkk, Fiend, Mia-X and Mystikal
37. Rico Suave ... Gerardo
38. Cotton Eyed Joe ... Rednex
39. She Bangs ... Ricky Martin
40. I Wanna Sex You Up ... Color Me Badd
41. We Didn't Start the Fire ... Billy Joel
42. The Sounds of Silence ... Simon & Garfunkel
43. Follow Me ... Uncle Kracker
44. I'll Do Anything for Love (But I Won't Do That) - Meatloaf
45. Mesmerize ... Ja Rule featuring Ashanti
46. Hangin' Tough ... New Kids on the Block
47. The Only Thing That Looks Good on Me Is You ... Bryan Adams
48. Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da ... The Beatles
49. I'm Too Sexy ... Right Said Fred
50. My Heart Will Go On ... Celine Dion |
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| And I Wanna Be Anarchy.... A Progress Report/ Goal List For Punk Rock 101 |
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| 11:56pm 26/05/2004 |
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mood:  calm music: "My Alien" by Simple Plan
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I'm not in the mood to recap what i've done in between entries.. because well at the moment i can't realy recall anything.... code for i feel lazy.. any ways here gores.
The whole "and i wanna be anarchy" part of my "subject" to this post is from the chorus to "anarchy in the uk" by the Sex Pistols. kinda listening(i've onyl heard two songs so far) to the Sex Pistols is all part of my search to achieve punk rock purity. Another part of it is finding my own style(i guess basically i'm looking for self actualization).
Part of finding my own style is not trying to copy Benji Madden anymore. Just like i realized i could never be exactly like Britney Spears, i've come to realize the same about Benji(ok.. well seriously to be EXACTLY like him it would take sergeries they don't preform in the US. And i happen to LOVE being a girl, and i'm NOT a l word... so yeah). And seriously why the heck am i trying to be like Benji. I mean he is cool and shit, but he isn't god(i'm still not sure i belive in him... god.. not benji.). And trying to belike Benji is getting me no where. I'm still a vegitarian and stuff.. but i think the tears, the fake "made girl" tattoos, ect are gonna take a break till hollaween.lol. I might do the tears everyonce in a while, because they're cool.
Another way of achieving punkness that i must get is.. SELF CONFIDANCE! i mean seriously i'm not confident. I don't even have confidance around younger kids. I mean seriously. I was chatting with Rachel(the punk/goth from hip-hop) today, and i felt out punk/goth'ed by her. Of chourse she now thinks i'm totally cool, because she thinks i'm allowd to do whatever i want.. wich is parcialy true. Like she asked if i'm allowed to smoke, and i said yeah.. But it is true to some extent. I mean i'm sure if i wanted to pick it up as a habbit it'd be a no. Anyways.. One thing for my self asteem thats improved is that i no longer say i'm a poser. Because i'm really not. I listen to "punk" or "pop/punk" because i like the music, not because it's popular. And i dress this way because i like it. I mean seriouslly ever since i was younger and didn't even know what goth and punk were, i thought it was cool/neat. I've kinda always been drawn twards it.. hmm maybe i was a punk in a former life...hahaha maybe i was Nancey(ya know Sid Vicious's g/f).lmfao.. ok maybe not.lol.
Like i said earlier about listening to the Sp's(Sex Pistols NOT Simple Plan). I wanna start listening to REAL punk music. Good Charlotte as much as i love them, Mest, SP(simple plan), Yellow Card, Blink182, New Found Glory, and Avril LAvigne are NOT punk. They are pop/punk.. Well actually they're punk.. They're Nu Punk. But to achive punk credibility you must listen to bands like Sex Pistols, Ramones, Dead Kennedys, Minor Threat, ect.... So far i've only downloaded two Sex Pistols songs, "Anarchy In The UK" and "God Save The Queen"(they where British). But i plan on downloading more by them and other punk bands. And whats more punk thank "stealing" music, by downloading.lol. I plan on buying the cds of the stuff i like when i get money. I also wanna get a Sex Pistols shirt(when i get money), they had this really cute one at Hot Topic. But my mom doesn't want me buying their merch, because Sid Vicious killed Nancey and w/e.. But it's like w/e he is dead, so it's not like he's gaining from me buying merch.. ya know?
This brings me to clothing. I talked earlier about wanting to find my own style. I also wanna go for a more punky, yet more wimsicle style of dress.. My current style borders on just being wierd and i wear to much black. Some times i look more goth than punk. Ahh i can't wait till i get money because i need to buy so much stuff.
Punk Rock 101 Goals:
~ Find My Own Style
~ Listen To Real Punk Music
~ Dress More Hardcore
~ Have Better Self Confidance
~ Stop Trying To Be Like Benji Madden
~ Go To Warped Tour
~ Meet Benji Madden
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| 06:43pm 19/04/2004 |
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mood:  weird music: "Everytime" Britney Spears
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Lmfao, i only did that title 'cause i couldn't think of one, and i just glanced over at my wall and saw the "lovel" picture of Advil i have up. Haha.. I drew devil horns, a unibrow, and a mustach on her picture. hahahahahahahahaha. I also got uber mad last night, and rippeddown the GC "DC's Finnest" poster(i have every GC poster). And then i drew all over it. It's kinda very funny what i did to the GC poster(if i can figure out how to upload camera phone pix, i'll put one up). But i plan on buying a new copy of the poster.
Ok here's whats happened since the last entry:
I had to let my libret piercing close, because the needle wasn't a gage.
I haven't done any more cutting or trying to commit suicide.
I've become more of a outcast. Oh well.
I think i've annoyed Dan to no end. Wah.. Oh well maybe he'll forgive me when i bake him a cake for his b-day.
I'm still a Veggie. To think i would go this far to emulate any band.
GC have been added to the Phoenix Warped Tour bill! Wich means i get to see my idol live in concert in 72 days(i think it's 72.. ahh however many days till June 30th). And my mom's agreed to let me go. Now i need to figure out who i'm going with.
I bought the most recent Mest CD back in March. I LOVE the CD. I officialy LOVE Mest!
Speaking of loving a band... I was temporarily obsessed with Nirvana. I read that "Heavier Than Heavan" Kurt Cobain bio. I bought a Nirvana t-shirt(wich i've only worn like three times.lol). And i also bought a Kurt Cobain poster. Not to mention i totally mourned Kurt & went as far as liting a candle for him at church on April 5th(the 10th anniv' of his death). I also contemplated making a fan site about Kurt. And i looked at a ton of those web sites about the murder theory. I sssoo think he was murdered!
I'm still obsessed with GC. I ssssooo wanna marry Benji. Hahaha.. i was just working on my GC scrap book yesterday. Hehe drawing hearts around pix of Benji is fun!
Ooo.. when i bought my Kurt Poster, i also bought a Simple Plan Poster, & a Made shirt.. Woo Hoo. A Made Shirt. I <3 Made Clothing. I cannot wait till the Made Shoes come out.. I am so gonna get a pair of the baby blue ones with the Pounds(English money) on the side.
Oook.. Now to here HERE & NOW. Tomorrow i'm gonna go record my DEMO! Yes my DEMO! I'm going to be singing "Smells Like Teen Spirit"(Nirvana), "Hold On"(Good Charlotte), "My Immortal"(Evensence) & "Chance Of A Life Time"(Mest). I'm going to be sending my demo to this producer in LA who's worked with Madonna, Celin Deon, Prince, and some other peeps. I also wanna send it to ome record lables(::coughdcflagcough::).
I so wanna be Rich & Famous.. hahahahha.. i was just working on a list of what i wanna buy when i'm a famous pop star.. here's what i've come up with so far.
What Samantha Will Buy When She Gets To Live The Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous(lol):
VW Bug
Audi TT
Jeep
Hummer H2
Kurt Cobain's Guitar(one just sold at auction for $117K)
Penthouse Apts In: NYC, London, Tokyo & LA
A Private GC Conter
A Maltese, Poodle or Yorkie
A Lot Of Electronics
A Ton Of Stuff At Hot Topic
Well I'm off for tonite. Tata
oh here are some quizes i took.
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| 07:17am 11/03/2004 |
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mood: sleepy music: "Screamer" by Good Charlotte
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well last night, after my attempt, wich was more me trying to attention than kill myself, i felt in a really wierd mood. Being that i'm an insomniac i some times get bored at night. And last night i did. I didn't feel like watching tv or listening to music. And i def' didn't wanna update my website, i didn't feel like prettending to be happy. So i deicded i was going to pierce my nose since thing issue with the fake nose rings from Clairs(the fake Clairs noserings started to go thru). But then when i thought about it, it was really my lip i wanted pierced and not my nose. So i did an internet search for instructions on doing so, wich didn't turn up any usefull info. So remembering how the girls pierced their ears in "the parent trap", i went and found: a soeing needle, a carrot, an earing, ice cubes, and rubbing alchole. yep... first i let the needle and earing soak for about an hour, while i still debated over wether to go thru with it. Then it broke the carrot in half, and put it under my lip. Then i got the needle and rinsed it off. Then i put the needle thru my lip. And it was done. It actually didn't hurt or bleed at all. I was somewhat amazed i went thru with it.lol. Any ways, i left the needle in for an hour or so, and then put the earing in for the night. The earing isn't big enough to use really, so i'm hoping my mom will go out and get me a barbell today.
When i told my mom last night that i pierced it(i woke her up before i went to sleep, because i felt guilty), she had a fit, and said she was gonna take me to the doctor in the morning. Now she doesn't seem to worried, though she statedi def' have a cemicle imbalance.
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| 08:37pm 10/03/2004 |
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tonight i felt really depressed and suicidal. So i put "the young and the hopeless" in my cd player, and put "hold on" on repeate. then i wrote a suicide letter. and cut my wrist with a razor. and then called my mom. who came home emediatly. i didn't really cut my arm bad enough to do any perminent damage. but i think i got the message accross that i'm desperately depressed(then again while she was putting stuff on my cuts, she made some joke that i called at a good time, because it saved her from an ocward sittuation at this party she was at). any ways.. I didn't let my mom see the suicide note.but i feel like letting someone see it. Any ways here is my suicide note:
Dear Mom and Dad,
i love you so much! i’m sorry i’m doing this to you! But it’s not fair for me to hold on anylonger. I’m sick of living. I can’t go on any longer. I want to let go. I feel like a trapped animal with no way out. I feel i have no future. And just a horrible and sad past. i need to let go, i don’t wanna hold on anylonger. Nothing can be as bad as my life is now. I can go be with Backie. I just want to die. I have no reason for living. I don’t want to do anything with my life anymore. I don’t wanna be a singer, or a vj or a fashion designer or an actress or anything anymore. i feel so bad that i’m going to do this to you all. But you need to realize this is what i feel is best for me. I love you all so much! i really do! i’m sorry if i’m being selfish.
As my final wishes: Mommy can you please clean my room so it can look nice forever. And Daddy could you please renew my web sites every year, because i really took pride in them. And can you both please let all my friends know i’m gone, including Melissa, and Rio.
Please remember i loved you all! And remember the happy times, no the sad.
I love you all and will miss you!
Forever,
Samantha Elise |
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| 04:36pm 10/03/2004 |
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mood: cheerful music: "Jaded" by Mest f/ Benji Madden
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so yeah.. it's been over two months since i update my journal. It seems like a total fucking enternity has gone bye.lol. I mean i hadn't even put up my web site, I Love Benji Madden(wich is now a Benji AND Joel site called The Madden Twins Network). RockstarBaby.net is now extremely popular! woo hoo! Lets see important things that have happened in the past month or so:
on feb 8th, i turned 14! woo hoo... umm.. a week or so later i stopped being friends with Rio(his family is so fucked up, and you know the louis bag he got me, it turns out it's a knock off. eek). Umm.. i've decided i'm not sure i wanna be a singer anymore. Ummm.. I saw The Passion of the Christ, wich made me depressed and anti-religious. Umm.. i'm still OCD over Good Charlotte. Umm..I went to Britney Spears Onyx Hotel Tour on 3/3/04, and i decided Britney is definatly not my role model anymore. Thus ends the teenie chapter of my life. umm.. yeah.. so that pretty much catches everything up. ooo wait i forgot one more thing.. Remember how <3 Dan <3 from The Coffee Bean had moved to NYC? well after being in NYC a little over a week, Dan decided to move back! yay! He actually moved back to AZ on my b-day(hmm.. could it be fate?).lol. Any ways.. yeah..So he still works at The Coffee Bean. woo hoo. I had this long chat with him and Matt about Punk and Rock music the other day. And well now it's my mission to make Dan like pop/punk stuff, it's going to be hard, but i'm up for it. lol. Ooo.. i def' think i DON'T have any chance with Dan, not just because he's 20, but because he has a 30 year old g/f. blah... so yeah.
Ooo.. so today i got up at like 10:30am! woo hoo! Go me! I got took a shower and got dressed. I look so cute today! I dyed my hair last night with red cool-aid so it has a redish orange hue to it. i wore a balck skirt with a rivit belt and chain. a black t-shirt with words like love, friendship, ect writen on it. ripped black fishnet stockings, black converse. my black GC wrist band. Some bracelets. A brownish purple tie, my lock knecklace, and my pink spike dog collar. For my make up i put black eyeshadow on, and dark red lip stick. oh and last but not leaste i carried my yellow/gold steve madden purse/pack thingie , wich i put gc pins on the outside of.lol.
Any ways.. around 11, i went down to the tennis courts to play tennis with my neighbor Felda(i just met her a few days ago. she is 19 and is originally from Spain)and her friend Aljandra. After playing tennis i stepped in the wierd white powder, so i went to dip my shoes in the fountain near the tennish courts, and to my horror my cellphone ended up falling into the water. I screamed so loud when it fell in that the HOA mangager Nancey came running out of the club house, thinking something horrible had happened(well it was horrible, but you know what i mean a real emergancy). Anyways, after that we hung out out by the pool under the clubhouse overhang. Then we had my mom drop us off at the mall for an hour and a half so we couldhave lunch.
When we got to the mall, Felda, Aljandra & i, went to this Chinese food place in the food court. I got chow mein(with no chicken 'cause i'm a vegitarian), fried shrimp, and these crab pot sticker things, and a mountain dew. After we ate we went to Hot Topic so i could look at clothes. I didn't buy anything though, 'cause my mom wouln't let me have the money my dad sent me, untill like next month or w/e.
After HT(wich doesn't feel the same now that Graham doesn't work there), we left the mall and went accross the street to The Coffee Bean. I got a Vannilla Ice Blended. Dan wasn't working today, but Matt was so i chatted with him for a bit about music. Then around 2:30 my mom came and picked Felda, Aljandra and i up. Then we came back to my house and hung out a bit. Then Felda & Aljandra went back to Felda's house.
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| 12:55am 27/01/2004 |
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mood: crazy music: watching the good charlotte dvd for the 4th time tonight
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Well it's been exactly one month since i last blogged. woo hoo. And now i Samantha am back. Yes.. I've been so busy over the past month: obsessing over GC, keeping my room clean, training poor N-dog to come to the name Benji instead of Nick, looking at pictures of Nick Carter and Paris Hilton, watching TRL everyday, harrassing Rio, being temporarily destitute, and much much more.
Oh guess what? Punk Rock 101.. it's all over counting it. I'm now a full on Poser Punk. Infact dressing prep makes me depressed. Yep it's all about wearing pink & black, runing eyeliner down my face for tears, writing "made girl" on my fingers(well thats not punk), and listening to GC 24/7. Oh and i even dyed my hair pink, but because i didn't bleach my hair it only lasted about a week. Amazing isn't it?
Stuff Thats Happened Over The Last Month(not in any particular order. just what comes to mind):
Ringing in the New Year by feeling suiciadal & depressed/crying and listening to "Hold On" on istant replay. Yes i kid you not, thats how i rang in my new year. it's a long story.
Rio letting me dress him up like Benji Madden, and actually video taping it. It was hilarious i dressed Rio in black, put his hair in a short mohawk, wrote on his fingers and put eyeliner tears on him. The scary thing is he actually looked scary and could have passed for a punk or atleast a gang member.
Being destitute. Yes the bank messed up my mom's bank account and my grandmother(who supports us anyways) was a bitch and didn't send us money, so we were poor. I had to sell my Destinys Child, 8mile & Janet Jackson cd, just to help us have food to eat. ha... But everythings ok now.
The fact my mom now has a boyfriend. I wouldn't even talk about it now, because i'm sure you'll hear a ton more about it.
My guitar teacher thinking i'm a gothic. yes this is sadly true.
My dad thinking i'm a gothic because i told him i dress in black. yes he is all worried i'm scary now.(he lives in NY so i had to tell him i was a punk)
Destroying the entire works of Good Charlotte(ok.. two cd's) by scrapping them accross the living room floor when i was pissed off. and then buying new copys a day or so after. (could this be a flash back to my now or never faze?)
Hacking Mel's(bandgeek3) site and putting up a punk/gc site. And then her hacking my site and putting up a LOTR site that had "(kill)(benji)" as part of the header.
Me making a whole Good Charlotte web site and then deciding i'm not sure i wanna put it online,and then making a Benji Madden web site and deciding i don't think i want one.
Finding out Nick Carter & Paris Hilton are dating. And seeing all these hidious pictures of them making out.
Cleaning my room so i could get a new copy of TYATH after i destroyed it. And keeping my room clean till this day.
Finding out that Dan from the Coffee Bean(the dude i had a crush on) is moving, and then finding out my Gothic friend Graham is moving. (they're both moving this week. wah)
Ok... well that kinda sums everything up.. oh yeah i never told about the whole B2k thing.. well here is my thingie that i wrote about it that day:
So B2k are in town 'cause they have a concert in Pheonix tomorrow... any ways... We were down town today 'cause my mom had a doctors apointement, afterwards we went to Borders Book's at the Biltmore so i could by the Justin Timberlake Live In London DVD with the giftcard my cousin's sent. So anyways.. i was in the CD section paying for the DVD, when i noticed two black teenage guys(phoenix doesn't have a huge black population. btw.. i'm not being racist, i'm half black). So i walked a little closer to get a better look of the guys...but then i decided nah they aren't B2k.
So then i left and went to lunch at AJ's. Then like 20 mins later me and my mom decided to go to Fashion Square. On the corner of Camelback & 68th, my mom noticed this guy and was comenting on his strange fashion sense. Any ways as we got closer i noticed that with the guy not only was some white woman, but the TWO GUYS I SAW AT THE BILTMORE! So any ways me and my mom decided that that was definatly B2K, that those people were prob their manager & body gard.
So we turned around and went into the Wellsfargo parking lot(since they apeared to be going there). And we pulled up to the two guys and rolled down the window, and i asked "Are You B2K?", and they laughed and mummbled "what she say" and walked off. LMFAO!!! It was definatly J-Boog & Lil Fizz though. I noticed Lil Fizz cut his hair and had huge diamon earings in. haha.
So later when me and my mom went to Sam Goody, and i was looking at posters(i was trying see if there were any GC posters i don't have, aparently i have them all.lol) and they had a B2K poster so i had my mom come look at it, and she agrees it was definatly them. haha...
So thats my celeb sighting of the day!
::end my discription::
the only prob with that whole thing is i later check ticket master, and it says that on that friday they were in Cali. But who knows the show could have been canceled. Only a week later B2k broke up. Kinda ironic.
Hmm.. well i'm gonna go. Tata.
Luv,
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| 01:34am 27/12/2003 |
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mood: drained music: "The Little Things" Good Char
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i'm not in the mood to chat about today.. ooo i did meet(Well i think i met) half of B2gay.. i tell all about it next update.. ok so here some questionair thingie.
1) Using names of bands/singers that you like, spell out your name.
Spice girls
Aaron carter
Madonna
Avril lavigne
Nick carter
Tlc
Hilary duff
Attomic kitten
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
unless my own sad songs count, then no.
3) What song(s) makes you cry?
"Tomorrow" by Avril Lavigne & "I Need You Tonight" by Nick Carter(that song actually used to make me feel sick for some reason)
4) What song(s) makes you happy?
a LOT of songs.. esp' Good Charlotte stuff.
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
i used to fall asleep with Backstreet Boys or Aaron Carter on, then i used to fall asleep with Nick Carter on, now i usually put Good Charlotte on.
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber.
who?
7) Who was/were your idol/s when you were younger?
omg.. i used to LOVE the Spice Girls, Britney, BSB & the Carter brothers.
8) First album you ever bought?
my first CD was "Spice" by the Spice Girls. my mom got me it for Christmas in 1997(aww.. 6 years ago. ::tears::). but the first cd i personally bought with my own money, well or atleast a gift certificate would be the self titled american BSB cd in 1999.
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone.
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| Merry Christmas |
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| 12:16am 26/12/2003 |
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So i set my alarm for like 5:45am. I was too tired so i hit mute on my TV. But i ended up waking up at 6:15. Then i went and opened my prezzies.
I got: american girl purple snow flake PJ's, "Happy Bunny" slipers, MTV umbrella, MTV shower radio,"Backstreet Boys DR" street sign, Justin Timberlake marionette doll, Britney Spears barbie, 3D NYC puzzel, chinese painting kit, a book with pix of NYC, the book Gigi, a braclette that says "destiny", a Destiny Dance t-shirt, a Lizzie Mcguire t-shirt, a Limited Too t-shirt, Abercrombie cam' pants, an Aaron Carter Calendar, BSB pens, a blue sequined wallet with a S on it.. and umm thats about it.
Around 10 i fell back asleep(in the shower.lmao), i woke up around 12. I Put On: my black GC shirt with the pink sleaves, my new cam' pants, & my pink Converse.
Then i went down to Hannah & Graham's, to see if they wanted to go to the Coffee Bean. They were watching Terminator 3, and said to come back when i got back from The Bean.
I went to the Coffee Bean, and got a hot coco. And wished Matt & Dan a Merry X-mas. Then i went down to South Scottsdale(the horror) and went to Wallgreens to get batteries for my MTV Radio. wahh.. i still haven't gotten it to work though.
When i got back Hannah & Graham were still watching the movie. So then me & my mom went to M-Shadows and she went swimming. When we went home, Hannah came over. We were like uber bored so we went back to Hannah's, on the way over we saw Graham. Any ways.. he decided he wanted to dye his hair red & brown. So me & Hannah like were gonna help him. But just before we were gonna put the dye in, my mom came, and i had to go to Rio's house for dinner, so i didn't get to help. Wah.lol.
At Rio's we at lazania. And i had a fit because there was meet in it, and theres that whole Mad Cow out break thingie. eek. I'm so worried.
Afterwards, me, my mom & (we decided to bring) Rio, went to this x-mas party my mom was invited to. It was fun. There was musical entertainment, and a lot of people did Kareoke-ish singing, so i got to sing "Jingle Bells", "Silent Night, & "The Christmas Song(chesnuts roasting on an open fire)". Uber fun.
When we got back to my gated comunity, we stopped by Graham & Hannah's. They need to clean up the hair stuff, so i decided to help, them and told my mom & Rio we'd walk over. So like i helped them with cleaning up & walking their dog. BTW.. Graham's hair looks AWESOME!
So then Graham & Hannah came over. Rio was still here, but unfortunatly he had to leave soon after i got back. aww. Any ways, after Rio went, i braided Graham's hair again, but their time with rubber bands so it would stay. yah.. He looks so creepified. hehe.
The Graham, left around 10 something. And me & Hannah listened to cd's. I'm gonna burn her a mix of some pop songs. ya.. So.. umm..
That was my x-mas. not too religious, but oh well. Ooo.. tomorrow is the finnal night of Chanukah. i am so sad, Christmas is over, and then Chanukah. wah.. i like the holidays.
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| Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays. (those lyrics are from an Nsync song) |
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| 01:13am 25/12/2003 |
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mood:  horny music: "I Need You Tonight" By Nick Carter
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So it's like today... i was compleatly someone i'm not. it's like i'm a "bad" girl now or something. it's all very wierd.
I woke up this morning, not only staring at GC posters thinking those guys are uber creepy, but sore. I was sore from jumping over the wall yesterday. It's amazing i don't have bruses. When i went out to the kitchen, Mom was cooking food for the "dinner party" tonight. I helped stir some stuff, then i decided to go into my room, and burn her a CD for x-mas. On the cd i put: "day that i die" ~GC, "so yesterday" ~hilary duff, "one better" ~ a. carter, "don't walk away" n. carter, "here comes the sun" ~ beatles, "voice within" x-tina, "everytime" britney, "with you" jessica simpson, "never again" j timberflake, "measure of a man" clay aiken, and "loose yourself" eminem.
After burning the cd i took a shower. Then i put on my preppy LDT2 blue cheer skirt and a pink LDT2 sweater, and pink converse, oh and my Luis Vution bag. Then i went with my mom to Mountain Shadows, and chilled there why she swam. Then we went to the Coffee Bean. I reminded the guys there invited to dinner(they didn't come though. wah). Oh and the Coffe Bean dudes said that one of Abbey's friends died in a car crash.. aww.. poor Abbey.
After the Bean i stopped by Jesssica's house to see if she wanted to hang. She was home, so we hung out for like the first time in a year. We listened to CD's, chatted & watched Clueless. Then at like 6pm Jessie left.
After Jess left me and mom got stuff ready for dinner. Hannah, Graham & their father(Procter) came at like 7:30. Of course Graham was all gothed out 'cause he was at work today. We ate some food, and we had a ton of glasses of virgin margerita mix(wich i drank without ice, wich probably is why i feel so wierd right now).Then a little later Rio, his mother Lisa, his Grandmother & his mom's b/f Tim, came.
Rio did not like Graham and Hannah, because see Rio is ULTRA ULTRA ULTRA PREPPY! But Rio's mother Lisa was like totally fasinated by Graham's look. haha. Ooo.. Lisa & Rio got me the cutest t-shirt & fishnet jacket from Gaadzook's. The t-shirt is brown and says "soho basketball" and the fish net jacket is camoflage.
So any ways.. Graham & Hannah decided to go back to their house to put on more punk/goth ish clothes. And Rio & i came with. On the way over Graham and Hannah were smoking, so i like totally took a puff of Hannah's ciggie. Ahh.. cigarrets are like totally tasteless.lol. But yeah.. that was so not a me thing, based on the fact i am germ phobic.
So at their house, Graham put on black pants, a black fishnet shirt and his long black trench, and re-did his tear make up and put on black lip stick(he seriously looks creepified). haha.. And Hannah put on blue plad pants, a silver corrset bra and black fishnet over it. And she did make up. And then Hannah and Graham did some eyeliner(normalish, no tears) and red eye shadow on me.
So any ways.. the whole time, Rio was all scared, because we joked about puting eyeliner on him, and Rio was like no way. He actually ended up curling up in a corner. (omg can't he take a joke). And he even asked Graham to borrow his lighter so he could smoke a cigar. Ahh.. i'm worried that Rio is becoming a chain smoker.
So like anyways.. when we left their house, Rio lit a cigar and then gave it to Graham 'cause he didn't like the flavor. But seriously i think Rio is like scared of Graham and Hannah... and i feel bad 'cause i think i was kinda mean to him, and scared him too.
So when we got back here, Hannah helped me pick out an outfit. So i ended up wearing a silver bikini top under the fish net jacket, black skirt, rivit belt, chain, i shortened my lock kneacklace to a choker, i wore ripped thigh high fishnets, and black & pink platforms. Oh and then Hannah teased my hair a bit. So yeah.. i basically looked like a whore, and so did Hannah.
I think my mom was totally appauled by the whole look. So then me, Graham & Hannah(Rio didn't want to come), walked down to Jessie's to say hi. Haha.. Jessie was dressed so pretty and preppy 'cause she was going to 10pm Mass, and her & her father looked at the three of us like WTF?...i felt bad.. and joked and was like yeah we're dressing up. ahh.
On the way back Hannah & i started goofing of singing GC songs in operah voices. It was uber funny. So when we got back to my house, Hannah & i practiced in my room. And then we went and sang "Smell Like Teen Spirit" by Nirvana in fron tof everyone. But in the middle of the music break in the song, my mom started saying "get the hook", and Rio went up and turned the music off. It REALLY upset me so i ran out of the house, and down the street. Rio & Hannah came after me, and i ended up cursing Rio out in front of neighbors. I did appologise later. And everything. And i when i got back in the house, i did totally confront my mom and she opologized.
Rio and his fam left a little before 9pm, and Hannah & Graham's dad left before that. So then Hannah, Graham, & i went back to their house, and got "Pulpfiction" then brought it back to my house and watched it. While watching it i briaded Graham's hair. Man it made him look even freakier with braids. haha.. i took a picture of it. :P
Omg.. "Pulpfiction" is like one of the wierdest movies.. and it's long. It got over at like 1am. so Graham & Hannah only left like 40 minutes ago.
Oh i had my mom open her x-mas presents, since it's already x-mas and she loved them. haha.. since on the cd the first track is by GC, she got all pissed & thought i'd burned her a whole thing of GC. haha.
Well.. any ways. nighty night sleep tight don't let the boybands bite, marry Christmas to all & to all a good night! |
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| 09:35pm 23/12/2003 |
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1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
I cantered on a horse. I went to the MTV Store & the Wax Mussiem. I had a crush on someone i've actually met. I saw Aaron Cater & Hilary Duff in Concert. Went to the mall without my mom.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
One of last years resilutions was "to cut back on listening or watching paranormal related stuff" and i cut back a LOT on it, so yes success. Next years resilutions are to: Never try to be anyone's #1 fan again. Take better care of my web sites. To good deeds. Stay true to myself. And be nicer to others. Oh and my goal for 2004 is to meet Nick Carter & go to a GC concert.lmao.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My computer graphics teacher had a baby in January.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
thankfully NO!
5. What countries did you visit?
i've never left the good old USA
6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
I want a Power Book, a boyfriend & to go to Xavior.
7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Well.. Seeing Nick Carter in concert(again) was AWESOME! Having Aaron Carter like totally definatly look at me while he sang "Do You Remember" was also awesome. Seeing TRL upclose in personal was amazing(when i first saw the building i got tears in my eyes)! But May 18th 2003 was the best day of the year. That morning i launched my first domain, BSBonline.net. And it was also the day of the horse show. And it was the first time i ever got first place in anything!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
my web sites. seeing TRL upclose. behaving. getting first place at horse back riding. but most of all getting over the Backstreet Boys is my biggest achivement. I will always love them, but i am happy not to be obsessed anymore.
[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<b.9.>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <b>1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?</b>
I cantered on a horse. I went to the MTV Store & the Wax Mussiem. I had a crush on someone i've actually met. I saw Aaron Cater & Hilary Duff in Concert. Went to the mall without my mom.
<b>2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?</b>
One of last years resilutions was "to cut back on listening or watching paranormal related stuff" and i cut back a LOT on it, so yes success. Next years resilutions are to: Never try to be anyone's #1 fan again. Take better care of my web sites. To good deeds. Stay true to myself. And be nicer to others. Oh and my goal for 2004 is to meet Nick Carter & go to a GC concert.lmao.
<b>3. Did anyone close to you give birth?</b>
My computer graphics teacher had a baby in January.
<b>4. Did anyone close to you die?</b>
thankfully NO!
<b>5. What countries did you visit?</b>
i've never left the good old USA
<b>6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?</b>
I want a Power Book, a boyfriend & to go to Xavior.
<b>7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?</b>
Well.. Seeing Nick Carter in concert(again) was AWESOME! Having Aaron Carter like totally definatly look at me while he sang "Do You Remember" was also awesome. Seeing TRL upclose in personal was amazing(when i first saw the building i got tears in my eyes)! But May 18th 2003 was the best day of the year. That morning i launched my first domain, BSBonline.net. And it was also the day of the horse show. And it was the first time i ever got first place in anything!
<b>8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?</b>
my web sites. seeing TRL upclose. behaving. getting first place at horse back riding. but most of all getting over the Backstreet Boys is my biggest achivement. I will always love them, but i am happy not to be obsessed anymore.
<b.9. What was your biggest failure?</b>
letting go of BSBonline.net. |
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| 08:37pm 23/12/2003 |
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I woke up. I had lowered some of my posters, so prob the first thing i saw this morning was GC's feet. haha. Any ways... i stared at my GC posters for a while, and came to the realization that Benji looks EVIL!lol!
What I Wore: plad skirt, Nick Carter T, black converse, lock knecklace, dog collar, GC wrist warmer, nose ring, lip ring. Hair & Make Up:black eye shadow, and semi-pig tails.
Ok.. so i went over to Graham and Hannah's to see what they were up to. They were just hanging out on the computer, so i chilled with them for like 2 hours. They were downloading techno music and then Graham downloaded a few episodes of The Ali G Show. haha.. that show is hilarious! So then at 2pm it was time for Graham to go to work. So Graham called my mom to see if it was ok, if i walked him down to work with Hannah. My mom said it was fine since we live a block from the mall as long as i didn't go inside.....
So we walked down to the mall, and Hannah decided she wanted to go shopping. So we all went to Hot Topic. Hannah bought a bra, like fishnet ish things, and nail polish.. Amazingly that took like 40 minutes. I was having "fun" untill my mom called. I like rushed outside the store, wich was hard since it was jammed, and i was like "get out of my way".lmao..I knew that if i picked up the phone in Hot Topic she would know i was in there, since it has all that loud metal musice. haha. So i picked up the phone outside of HT, and my mom was like "where are you" so i lied and said "oh were right outside the mall". Amazingly she belived it. haha. So i go and tell Hannah we have to leave, but yes she feels she really needs the stuff(like she couldn't put it on hold or have her bro buy it for her). So we waited online about 10 or 15 mins, i kept alternating between sining "help me" & "hold on" to myself verysoftly. At this point i was sssooo woried i was going to get into mucho trouble. My mom ended up calling a few times, and was worried about me walking since i was "so tired" (as i put it). ha. So when we finally left the mall, suggested we hop the wall of the gated comunity to save about 5 mins. So we walked threw the parking lot of this office building and tried to jump the fence.. of course i'm un-quardinated so i couldn't jump it(Hannah could), so i ended up climbing on top of part of the buildings ventilation systeme then jumping onto the wall. Hehe.. where we hopped the fense was next to the tennis court and there happened to be people playing. So they totally gave me a WTF look. haha!
So then me and Hannah walked down to her dad's house to drop off her perchases(so my mom wouldn't know that we had been to the mall) and then we walked back to my house. We chilled for a bit, and listened to music and stuff. And i decided to change clothes. I Put On: black hip huggers, black short sleave GC shirt, black Converse, black GC wrist warmer, lock knecklace, and i put my hair up in a bun & attached a fake hair pony tail.
Then a while later we got my mom to take us to The Coffee Bean. Hannah had never been to The Coffee Bean.. so yeah.lol. We both got Malibu Dreams. Umm. and Dan, Matt, Abbey & Nick were all there today, though Abbey & Matt weren't working. Oh and Dan had a hang over or something.. how nice.lol.
Umm... then we came back to the house. And i let Hannah borrow my pink stretchy Bebe shirt. It actually looked good on her. Umm.. then my mom took us to dinner at El Chorro. I guess it was fun.lol. I had a shrimp cocktail and a virgin margerita. funness.. After El Chorro Hannah had to go back to her house 'cause her dad wanted to take her to dinner. haha. So she is gonna give me my shirt back tomorrow.
Then me & my mom went to Cosaunti 'cause there was this thingie at Paolo Soleri's. Umm.. yeah. Then i went to The Coffee Bean to get a brownie for desert. I also invited The Coffee Bean people to come over tomorrow for X-mas Eve dinner. haha. :D
So now i'm here, on the internet updating my journal. Ttyl. L8r Sk8r Nsync H8r!
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sorry for not updating.. i was BZ! umm.. punk rock 101 is still comencing.. it may be perminent.. ok.. lets go.
Friday: Well on friday my most eventfull happening was well going to singing lessons. i sang "Hold On". i sang it very well(my teacher tapes the sesions and i listened to my tape). Umm.. and i wanted to go to the mall to hang out while my mom was out, but she said no. BITCH! So then i asked if i could go to the Coffee Bean alone, and she said no! Damn it! What the fuck does she think is going to happen at the fucking Coffee Bean? it's so safe there, and i've made friends with the employees. Oh well. Moving On..
Saturday: Well like every Saturday it started off with moi going to "preformance class" at Destiny Dance. This Saturday was our last for this year(class starts back up on like Jan 10th or something). I sang "Hold On" and during the music break twards the middle of the song i did a cartwheel wich totally captivated everyone for some reason. I got a lot of praise for the cartwheel.lmao. Good Preformance.
Then i went to the bank to cash the check from Nana.. Then it was off to the MALL! Of course miss bitch mother wouldn't let me go alone. Wah.. Any ways.. i spent an hour or two there. It was uber crowded. First i went to Hot Topic. My neighbor Graham(i just found out yesterday that his name is spelt Graham and not Gram) was working so i said hi to him. Any ways.. in Hot Topic i bought: two Good Charlotte posters, two Good Charlotte t-shirts, and a lock knecklace like the one Benji from Good Charlotte had in "The Little Things" video. lol. The t-shirts are uber cute. Oh and the knecklace..well it has no clasp, you actually lock the chain, and it comes with keys so you can get it off.LMAO. After Hot Topic i went to Clairs and bought a fake nose ring and a fake lip ring. woo hoo.
Lets see what else happened Saturday..Oo.. i went to The Coffee Bean that night. Dan was on duty. ::sighs:: I chatted with him a bit. And i asked him if he had seen LOTR yet.. haha.. he saw it at midnight when it opened. FREAK! lol. He said it was good. wah.. i wanna see it!
So what else... i really can't remember aside from falling asleep with Titanic on.lmao.
Sunday: Umm... really can't remember much but here goes... So even though my mom wouldn't let me go alone to the mall i still need to get her an x-mas present, so i had her take me. And i got her the pink fuzzy slippers she wanted from the Steve Madden store(she knows i got her them. suprise suprise). I also got my self this really cute goldish yellow purse with olive brown & tote grey trim. It's really a cool purse! :D Umm.. then i decided since the day before i had only bought 2 of the three different GC posters Hot Topic sells to go ahead and buy the third. So yeah.. now i have 3 Good Charlotte posters( i swear i've gone over the edge of instanity).
So then yesterday after noon was the Christmas(well holiday) party at the club house for the whole gated comunity. It was uhh.. boring aside from the free food. I had a lot of people i didn't know coming up to me and being all "oh how are you, you've grown so much".lmao. There were like no kids there. So i called Graham at Hot Topic, to tell him to come after he got off work. Soo.. then like 20 mins later i saw him walking home(i was on the second floor of the club house), so i followed him to tell him to come. Of course i was carrying a cup of coffee, so i couldn't run to catch up with him. And i couldn't yell to him since he had head phones on(he listens to metal!). So i ended up following him the whole way. Then ringing his door bell for like five minutes till he answered. So then he said he would comein like 10 mins, he just needed to relax a bit. So i walked back to the party. And when i got back it was almost over. And since i was bored i like made a plate of food for him and then afterwards brought it over for him. lmao. So i hung out and chatted with him in his back yard for like and hour or so, afterwards, while my mom chatted with his dad for a bit.
Then i came home. I turned on the tv, and well Titanic was on NBC. And even though i had watched it the night before, since it's my favorite movie, i watched it(it was allready half way threw any ways.. i turned it on at the part right after Jack had drawn the picture). Lmao.. and even though i've seen it atleast 20 times, i got all teary when Jack died, and even more teary when Rose see's the Statue Of Liberty and is like "Dawson, Rose Dawson", and then i got even more teary at the end when they kiss.lmao...
So umm.. ooo i was chatting with Mel(BandGeek3) and we decided to come up with nick-names. So now she is Meladriel since she is obsessed with LOTR after Galadriel. And now i'm Samji after my role model(::laughs::) Benji from Good Charlotte. Lmao.. ok... Ends Sunday.
Today Aka: Monday: Umm.. well this morning my mom woke me up at like 6 to say she was going to the gas station to get ciggies. Umm..and my one GC poster(wich i taped up since i ran out of tacks) had practicly falled on top of me. LMFAO. So any ways..i went with her. In the car she was like "you looked like you did when you were 3". And i was like "wtf. i'm wearing a GC t-shirt" and she was like "well the pink sleaves look kinda like the ones on the Little Mermaid PJ's you had". aww.. Any ways.. of course i went back to sleep when we got home.
Then i got up, prob around 12pm. And went to The Coffee Bean. Then we went to the pool and i read a LOT of "Gone With The Wind". Then we came home,and i read more of "Gone With The Wind" while my mom cursed out the bank on the phone. Yes..it looks like she might sue Bank Of America, because they messed up her bank account and owe her a few thousand dollars. So like now were temporarily destitue. Oh joy, just in time for Christmas.
Then we went to Rio's house. haha..I went on his comp and saw that California had a massive earthquake, and when i saw that it was near San Fran, i got sssoo worried about Meladriel, luckily she was online,and she said she slept threw it! :D So later,even though Rio HATES TRL, i made him turn it on just so i could see how GC did on the countdown.."Hold On" was #6(aww. they're holding on.lmao). I also watched part of the Martha Stuart/Larry King interview. Me and Rio are both BIG Martha Stuart fans. hehe. Oh so.. then Rio went out side and lit a cigar. Yes he is 12 and smokes cigars. So i protested that i want one too, and my mom said it was ok, so Rio gave me a cigar. Haha.. For the first time in my whole life i smoked. Ahh.. I smoked a whole cigar. And afterwards i decided never to smoke again in my life. Cigars are GROSS! And Cigarettes are probably just as bad(i don't wanna find out)! I mean i guess it was fun blowing the smoke out and stuff.. but the taste it leaves, and coughing because your surrounded by smoke, is NOT fun. So yeah. Haha.. So then later after Rio's i came home.
I went online, and was chatting with people. And i IM'ed Graham. And was chatting with him & his sister Hannah who just flew in today to spend x-mas with him. And i mentioned i was listening to t.A.t.U, so she asked if she could barrow it(wich she ended up not doing.lmao). So Hannah & Graham came over. We chatted and watched the "Good Charlotte Video Collection" DVD. Oh so.. then we deicded to make cookies. Now they were supposed to be Chocolate Chip.. but Hannah decided we should mix in Rassberrys, so we did.. And they came out very uhh "intresting". haha.. they are like greenish. Ooo.. and they helped me light the Chanukah candles, 'cause i had forgot to earlier. lmao. They left around 11:30.
Umm.. so now i'm just listening to the self titled GC disk, and updating my journal!lol. Well nighty night sleep tight don't let the boybands bite! |
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| Haha...More IM Convo's With The Good Char Poser! |
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| 12:48am 19/12/2003 |
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mood: crazy music: "The Little Things" by Good Charlotte
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This time i have him caught. I chatted with him/her on two s/n's at once(thank you AOL & AIM), GoodCharlotte4se & TheCoffeeBeanAZ. And heres how i know he's a fake. 1. in the one IM he claimed to be Joel, and said Benji was watching TV. And on the other he was "Joel" and then put "Benji" on. But on the other IM he was still Joel.
2. in the one IM he said Benji has a ton of g/f's. while in the other IM "Benji" said he was single!
3. When i asked "Benji" if him and Christina Aguilera ever went out, he said she wasn't his type of girl. HELLO Benji wanted to date her last year, he even asked her out live on TRL.
4. And when "Benji" asked him about the line in Riot Girl that goes: "Christina wouldn't wanna meet her she hates you Britney, so you better run for cover." "Benji" said that the girl that wants to Riot hates Christina. So i asked well what about the thing about X-tina hating Britney, and he said well she hates her too.
5. When i asked "Joel" if they were ever really on welfare he said no. So i questioned him about why it's in Waldorf Worldwide. And he said he needed something to sing about.
haha.. ok here are the IM's. The one of GoodCharlotte4SE, i am myself. And then one on TheCoffeeBeanAZ, i pretend to be a 12 year old named Jen from NYC, but when he figures i'm not 12 by the pic i give him(hehe it's one of the fake Farron pix that was made in photo shop, it's not even a real person) i pretend i'm a 17 year old name Farron, and that Jen is my sis.lmao.
GoodCharlotte4SE IM with "Joel"
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:53 PM]: hey!
Bloneboy1324 [11:53 PM]: hey!
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:53 PM]: are you joel or benji?
Bloneboy1324 [11:53 PM]: joel
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:53 PM]: ooo.. how come Benji is never on?
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:54 PM]: ?
Bloneboy1324 [11:55 PM]: cuz he's watchin TV and won't get off his lazy ass lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:55 PM]: haha.lol.
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:56 PM]: so.. how was your concert tonight? (or i guess for you last night)
Bloneboy1324 [11:57 PM]: awesome had a good time on stage
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:57 PM]: coolness.
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:57 PM]: do you get nervouse?
Bloneboy1324 [11:57 PM]: not really
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:58 PM]: o
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:58 PM]: bought any good cd's lately?
Bloneboy1324 [11:59 PM]: not really can't go anywhere without getting mobbed lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:59 PM]: aww
GoodCharlotte4SE [11:59 PM]: well theres always online ordering.
Bloneboy1324 [11:59 PM]: true but where would i send it to? my mom would think its something else besides a CD lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:00 AM]: ooo.lol.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:01 AM]: is it true that Benji is dating Tony from Mest?
Bloneboy1324 [12:01 AM]: god no!
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:02 AM]: thats good to know.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:02 AM]: so he isn't gay?
Bloneboy1324 [12:02 AM]: god no he's had a few girlfriends already
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:03 AM]: yay. :D
Bloneboy1324 [12:06 AM]: lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:07 AM]: is it hard for you and Benji on x-mas eve? (warn me if this is a bad subject)
Bloneboy1324 [12:07 AM]: why would it be bad?
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:07 AM]: umm.. didn't your father walk out on christmas eve?
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:08 AM]: ???
Bloneboy1324 [12:10 AM]: yeah but it was a while ago so it doesn't bother us anymore
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:10 AM]: oh ok.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:12 AM]: wanna be IM friends?
Bloneboy1324 [12:12 AM]: sure
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:12 AM]: yay!
Bloneboy1324 [12:13 AM]: lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:14 AM]: you said earleir that Benj was watching TV. what show is he watching?
Bloneboy1324 [12:15 AM]: this british TV show called "second sight" or something like that
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:16 AM]: col.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:17 AM]: cool*
Bloneboy1324 [12:17 AM]: yeah
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:26 AM]: so...
Bloneboy1324 [12:28 AM]: sooooooooooooooo
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:29 AM]: i'm so bored.
Bloneboy1324 [12:30 AM]: same
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:30 AM]: so...
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:31 AM]: ask benji if the show he is watching is anygood. i'm intrested in what British TV is like. i so want to move to England.lol.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:32 AM]: joel.. you there?
Bloneboy1324 [12:32 AM]: lol ok hang on
Bloneboy1324 [12:33 AM]: he said its strange
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:34 AM]: oo...wierd.
Bloneboy1324 [12:35 AM]: yeah
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:36 AM]: so..
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:38 AM]: have you an Benj decided what your gonna do for your big 25th b-day in 3 months?
Bloneboy1324 [12:38 AM]: noppe lol we wanna plan somethin big but not too big yuh know?
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:39 AM]: cool.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:39 AM]: ooo maybe you could do something on MTV. that would be cool.
Bloneboy1324 [12:39 AM]: yeah but that'd be over doing it for us
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:39 AM]: ooo
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:44 AM]: do you guys think your punk or pop or rock?
Bloneboy1324 [12:44 AM]: punk rock
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:44 AM]: o.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:45 AM]: i heard a long time ago, something about either your or benji saying "nick carter should be burned alive", is that true?
Bloneboy1324 [12:46 AM]: yeah
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:47 AM]: thats so mean.lol.
Bloneboy1324 [12:47 AM]: lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:48 AM]: have we formerly introduced ourselves?
Bloneboy1324 [12:50 AM]: i don't think so
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:50 AM]: oh. i'm Sammy, and i'm 13.
Bloneboy1324 [12:51 AM]: cool i'm joel and i'm 24 lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:51 AM]: lol. i know that.lol.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:52 AM]: and you were born MArch 11th 1979 in Waldorf MD
Bloneboy1324 [12:53 AM]: yeah lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:53 AM]: is it true you were once on Welfare?
Bloneboy1324 [12:55 AM]: no
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:56 AM]: o.
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:56 AM]: why did you sing about it in Waldorf Worldwide?
Bloneboy1324 [12:57 AM]: b/c i had to sing about something and i had nothin at the time lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:57 AM]: o
Bloneboy1324 [12:58 AM]: yeah
Bloneboy1324 [12:58 AM]: g2g bye bye
GoodCharlotte4SE [12:59 AM]: bye
TheCoffeeBeanAZ(as Jen & Farron. LMAO) IM with "Benji"
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Oh My GoD.. yOuR jOeL fRoM gOoD cHaRlOtTe!
Bloneboy1324: yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: OmG i LoVe YoU!
Bloneboy1324: thanx i love you too! i don't know you but i love you lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ArE yOu GoInG tO bE oN tRl SoOn? I rEaLy MiSs SeEiNg YoU oN "aLl ThInGs RoCk".
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i UsEd To WaTcH "aLl ThInGs RoCk" JuSt To SeE yOu & BeNjI! tHe OnLy RoCk I lIkE iS: yOu, BlInK182, AvRiL lAvIgNe, SiMpLe PlAn, SuM 41 & NiCk CaRtEr!
Bloneboy1324: lol i don't think so maybe soon but i dunno yeah
Bloneboy1324: yeah SP are close friends of ours
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: KeWl!
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: do you mind if i type like this?
Bloneboy1324: nope
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ok.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Do you like Nick Carter?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i think his music is really rocky and hardcore.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ?
Bloneboy1324: not really
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: oh...
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Do you have a girl friend?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: if so i'm gonna be really sad 'cause i wanna marry you.
Bloneboy1324: lol nope no girlfriend
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: yay!
Bloneboy1324: lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: would you ever date a fan?
Bloneboy1324: depends where do you live?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: o
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: By the way my name is Jen and i'm 12, i live in NYC.
Bloneboy1324: hey jen lol i don't think ur mom would want u goin out with a 24 yr old would you?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: oh i don't think she'd care.
Bloneboy1324: hmmmm i don't think it would work lol if you were i lil bit older yeah maybe but ur kinda a lil too young but we can be friends how about that?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ok.
Bloneboy1324: ok
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Do you think you'll ever go solo?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: omg.. you should like totally go solo, then you can be like uber popular like Justin Timberlake!!! :D
Bloneboy1324: no justin's cool but i don't wanna go solo
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: aww..
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: yeah.. your music vids wouldn't be as good without Benji.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: do you think Benji would date a 12 year old? he is super hot,too!
Bloneboy1324: lol i dunno want me to ask him? lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: sure.
Bloneboy1324: he said maybe depends if they wanted to see me a lot
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: omg.. tell him i'd do whatever he wants. like totally!
Bloneboy1324: lol
Bloneboy1324: hang on
Bloneboy1324: he said where the hell am i getting these questions from lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: oo.lol
Bloneboy1324: hey sup?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: benji?
Bloneboy1324: yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: sup?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: so whats your fave band?
Bloneboy1324: i got a lot
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ooo.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: my favorite band is Good Charlotte. but i also love BSB & Nsync.
Bloneboy1324: lol so you love us and u love pop?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: yeah.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: but i also like hardcore bands like Nirvana
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: wanna see my pic?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ?
Bloneboy1324: yeah sure
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: it's a pic with Carson Daly, inside the MTV building.
Bloneboy1324: ok cool
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: it came out kinda over exposed because of the studio lights but oh well..
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: http://www.bsbonline.net/farron/farrpix2/farrredhairwithcarson1.jpg
Bloneboy1324: u don't look 12
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: how old do you think i am?
Bloneboy1324: u told joel u were 12
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: yah.
Bloneboy1324: well u don't look 12 in that pic so thats prolly not you or u lied about ur age
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: how old do you think i am?
Bloneboy1324: prolly around 15
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i'm really 17. and my name isn't Jen it's Farron.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: see my little sister Jen, who is 12 and a total phsyco GC fan... grabbed the keyboard when i left the room to go get some pretzals.
Bloneboy1324: then why'd you tell joel u were 12? b/c he's crazy enough to go out with you
Bloneboy1324: ooh ok
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Jen: i'm really sorry..
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Ok.. well jen's going to bed now.. it's way past her bed time. but it's like x-mas break and all.lol.
Bloneboy1324: lol ok well tell her its ok lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ok.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i heard you were dating some guy from some band(i think it was called best or mest or pest.. something with an est) is that true?
Bloneboy1324: no i'm not gay i love chicks not guys lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: awesome!
Bloneboy1324: yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: so.. were you really concidering going out with Jen?
Bloneboy1324: no lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: haha... good.
Bloneboy1324: i don't think ur mom would've liked it anyway lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: def. not.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: Jen isn't allowed to date anyone older than 16.
Bloneboy1324: thought so
Bloneboy1324: and you?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i decide for myself.
Bloneboy1324: cool
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: do you have a GF?
Bloneboy1324: nope
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: awesome!
Bloneboy1324: yeah
Bloneboy1324: got a BF?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: nope
Bloneboy1324: cool
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: did you and Christina ever go out?
Bloneboy1324: nope she's cool and all but shes not really my kinda chick
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: really?
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: then how come last year when you and Joel hosted TRL for a week, you talked everyday about how much you loved X-tina and wanted to go out with her. And then on the last day Joel had X-tina call up TRL, and you asked her out?
Bloneboy1324: it was all a joke
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: And how come in Riot Girl the lyrics go "Christina wouldn't wanna meet her she hates you Britney, so you better run for cover?"
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: ooo..
Bloneboy1324: yeah
Bloneboy1324: and b/c christina wouldnt wanna meet the chick that wants riots all the time cuz the chick would beat christina up lol
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: umm.. right.. i always though that line was about Christina not likeing Britney.
Bloneboy1324: nope
Bloneboy1324: and the girl hates britney so yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: o
Bloneboy1324: yeah
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: cool.
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: i love that song.
Bloneboy1324: cool
Bloneboy1324: g2g bye bye
TheCoffeeBeanAZ: nite. ttyl. maybe we can go out.lol |
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| 11:10pm 18/12/2003 |
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mood: crushed music: "Change" by Good Charlotte
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yes.. another day of Punk Rock 101. And yet another day that i can't remember in detail. I should tell my mom about my memoryloss.
Um.. What I Wore: pink & black plad Hot Topic skirt, black Nick Carter t-shirt, black Converse, my trusty dog collar, GC wrist warmer, and pink & black Hot Topic armwarmers. Hair: same as yesterday down with blew extentions mixed in.
Ok.. so lets see what did i do??? hmm.. Well i went to the Coffee Bean around noon(i got up at 11 something today. mucho[i like useing other langs] early). Umm.. i got a Hot Coco, and the Coffee Bean staff member on duty was Nick. Umm. yeah.. on the way out i saw Dan who was coming to work(he looked half asleep), since i guess they change shifts around 12:30.
Umm.. lets see i'm drawing a blank on what happened next. Umm... at 2:30 Allison to do my comp graphics lesson. I was going to edit what she taped of my preformance at Desert Ridge, but my fucking iBook only had like 700 something megs left on the entire hardrive. So we deleated a LOT of songs(mostly BSB, Nick Carter & Justin T-flake shit), and a few programs. Wich got it up to 8 or 900. Then i imported the movie, but of course my "disk was running slow" so it messed the movie up.. great computer. So Allison is going to covert the movie into 2 clips and put it on a CD-R and we'll work on it umm i guess in two weeks since i don't have lesson next week 'cause of x-mas. So then i showed Allison my GC site, since it's coming up all inverted, and she agreed it was odd. So next time she is bringing her books so we can look at whats wrong.
Umm.. After Allison.. umm.. i think thats when i went to The Coffee Bean for the second time today. This time i got a Malibu Dream. Dan was the Coffee Bean person on duty, duh! He couldn't belive i was in there again. And made a comment that it's pretty bad when your in there twice in one hour. I chatted with him while he made my drink, about writing song and stuff, since he writes song lyrics too. I said most of the songs i write are sad and about depression. And he said that so doesn't seem like me(aww...). So i was totally thinking, hey maybe he likes me. lol. Ah... but then something horrid happened.. He mentioned he went to bed at 6am(ok well thats not what horrid)... and then he mentioned something about his girlfriend left to go away today! ahh.. he has a girlfriend. NO! Oh well it's not like i had a chance in heck with him, i mean he is like 20 and i'm 13(well almost 14). Wah.. Haha.. i guess both me & Mel both have things in common this week. Except i didn't contemplate jumping over a bridge. Infact i'm not really all that pissed or disapointed over it, i don't really have much of a crush on Dan anyways. Ahh.. so Dan has a g/f.. oh wellness.
Umm... drawing another blank.. I think went home.. wait no i think thats when i went to AJ's to get some more x-mas cards to give to people. Umm.. Drawing another blank. Then me and my mom went to El Chorro, for dinner. I had a hamburger. funness.
Then we came home. And i put on TRL. Ahh.. i totally expect for GC to be at #9, #8, or #7, 'cause "Hold On" is so sad.. so I totally started hyper venilating, when they weren't in any of those spots. And then when they showed the close calls, i started hyper venilating more expecting them to be on that.lmao.. So during comercail i rushed online, and checked on Absulute TRL, to see what spot they were at, luckily they were at #6. So i let out a sigh of relief. lol.
Umm so after watching TRL it was time for Hip-Hop. Lindsay our normal instructor wasn't there, and today it was this woman Melanie. Ahh..i do not like her. I was really nice and asked her what cd she put on and she said "Matchbox 20". So i asked "ooo is this the one with 'Unwell' on it?" and she said really snotily "I. Dont. Know." And then during excercizes she KEPT on asking people about school. Being that i feel really bad when ever anyone mentiosn school, i totally couldn't take it. So i left silently. And then when i got out to the car, i told my mom. And then i put "The Young & The Hopeless" on and put it to "Hold On", and then when "Hold On" was over, i took it out, and put on "Now Or Never" and put on "Help Me"... and then everything was ok. And i asked to go to The Coffee Bean. Wich makes it my record for most trips to The Coffee Bean in one day! woo hoo.. go me!
At The Coffee Bean i got a Holiday Mint decaf ice blended. Ahh.. it was way tooo minty. I drank less than half of it, it was sickening. Umm.. oh yeah Dan was still on duty. I didn't chat with him though, 'cause he once again looked half asleep. umm.. yeah.
So umm.. then me and my mom went to AJ's to buy Cocolate Chips, 'cause we're gonna make cookies tomorrow or saturday. yah.
Umm.. then i came home and just crashed in my little cozy nap/music area of my room. And i put on some the Nsync "Celebrity" cd. After that i went online and stuff. Then later on i went back in my room and turned Nsync off. And put on Britney Spears "In The Zone", i always play my CD's on random. Anyways after a few songs, "Everytime"(the song Brit wrote about J TimberFlake) came on. And for some reason that song made me feel like putting on Millennium(wich threw out my childhood, ok 2000-2003, was my favorite cd). I put Millennium on and i fast fowarded it to "I Need You Tonight"(wich is a really beautiful ballad that is sung only by Nick Carter), and for some reason the song made me cry. I just broke down in tears. I don't even know why, or what i was crying about/for. But i was crying.(for some reason my eyes are tearing up no) I think maybe i was crying because the person i really am deep down inside, is the girl who listens to BSB and all that stuff, trys to dress as much like Britney Spear or a girl from Clueless, and prides herself on being able to excesorize & color cordinate better than most people. But now i'm a poser punk. I think right now in my life being a poser is what i need to be, because i can't handle trying to be miss perfect. But someday i'll be me again. In the word of Benji Madden from GC "We Are What We Are And No One Can Change That". (i <3 that quote)
So umm.. now i feel headache-y. ha.. umm..
Other Random Things: So like in the car tonight, i mentioned to my mom that i think the two twin guys from GC are hot. And she was like totally practicly outraged. She couldn't belive i would think that. haha.. she was like but there not blonde. OMG.. just because i tend to have crushed on blonde people, doesn't mean i only like blonde guys. ahh.. So then i lied(well i was joking, but i don't think she realized it) that they are official at the top of my list(i'll get to that in a second) above Prince William.lmao. Ok the List. I have this list of people i would like/be willing to marry.lmao.
The List:
#1. Nick Carter
#2. Leonardo Dicaprio
#3. Justin TimberFlake
#4. Prince William
#5. Prince Harry
#6. Aaron Carter
#7. Eminem
lmao... i'm compleatly nutz.
More Important Random Things:
I think it was in my first entry or one of them, i said if i'm not over this poser punk thing/GC obsession by Chanukah, i need major help/a intervention. Well tomorrow at sundown is Chanukah(haha.. i'm not Jewish but i wannabe for some reason),and i don't show any signs of this poser thing wearing off.. ahh.. oh wells.
Ok.. well i'm gonna go to bed or w/e... Ooo, tomorrow my check from Nana(grandma) should come and then i can go shopping! :D |
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mood: giggly music: "Screamer" ~ Good Charlotte
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ok.. so for some reason i LOVE chatting with celebrity posers. haha.. So the other day someone posted on the AOL GC message board the s/n on a Benji/Joel poser. haha.. so i chatted with "joel", but he signed off when i asked him what day & year their dad walked out(x-mas eve '96... you don't have to be a stalker to know that).. haha.. so i added him to my B/L. Any ways he was on tonight and here is our convo, i'm GoodCharlotte4SE. BTW..
Convo With "Joel":
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:07 PM]: hi
Bloneboy1324 [10:08 PM]: hey
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:08 PM]: are you benji or joel?
Bloneboy1324 [10:08 PM]: joel
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:08 PM]: oh hey.
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:08 PM]: how are you?
Bloneboy1324 [10:09 PM]: good and you?
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:09 PM]: great.
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:09 PM]: so what country are you & GC in?
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:11 PM]: are you there joel?
Bloneboy1324 [10:11 PM]: yeah sry
Bloneboy1324 [10:11 PM]: england
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:11 PM]: awesome!
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:12 PM]: what time is it?
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:12 PM]: ...
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:12 PM]: so hows Benj?
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:14 PM]: do you not want to chat???
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:16 PM]: ::starts crying:: i think your mad at me. wah...
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:22 PM]: are you mad at me?
Bloneboy1324 [10:23 PM]: no
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:23 PM]: good! :D
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:24 PM]: when does your next CD come out?
Bloneboy1324 [10:24 PM]: maybe late next year
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:25 PM]: yay! i can't wait to get it! i love your two albums! my favorite is your self titled disk.
Bloneboy1324 [10:26 PM]: thanx
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:26 PM]: my favorite song of your is either "eastcoast antheme", "little things", "thank you mom" or "seasons"
Bloneboy1324 [10:26 PM]: cool
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:27 PM]: hows Benji doing?
Bloneboy1324 [10:28 PM]: pretty good he's sleepin
Bloneboy1324 [10:28 PM]: lol
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:28 PM]: aww
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:29 PM]: are you guys going to come back to the USA for x-mas?
Bloneboy1324 [10:29 PM]: yeah then we go to Japan for the rest of the tour
GoodCharlotte4SE [10:31 PM]: awesome!
Bloneboy1324 [10:31 PM]: yeah g2g though i'm sorry
End Convo
haha.. the guy to a while responding to certain questions like "what country are you in?" wich leads me to belive he had to go check the official web site to find out these important tidbits. Plus if it's 10:41 here in AZ, isn't it like 7:41 in England? Why would Joel be up, but Benji is snoozing? ha.. ok maybe that one i can give them the benifit of the doubt on, since i mean look i get up at 12 noon.lol. ok.. well yeah.. fun poser convos. |
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